Living For Daydreams? Living in Maybes? I TRY To Live For Now.

Hubby surprised me this morning.

"I had a really weird dream last night" he began, "That we found a hidden room in the house and since we had the extra space decided that we'd have another baby since the lack of room was the only thing stopping us."

This my readers is true - not that we found a spare room but that I think if it wasn't for the lack of space in the house, a fourth child could be a real possibility.

We already plan to upgrade the car to a 7 seater so we can go out with an extra passenger or two. We can manage financially, I am finding life easier now the boys aren't babies as such anymore.

Though I like to look forward and wonder what the future may hold beyond 2014 when I have 3 children in full time school, I do think it would be nice at times to have a baby again.

This could all be just stirred up since it's been our anniversary this weekend and that his brother is going to be a first time dad in a couple of months but I find it strange that hubbys even honing in on my own dreams.

I've been dreaming (in the sleeping sense) of pregnancy alot myself lately. Again, it could be due to SIL's own pregnancy or the fact that a few blogs I follow are trying to concieve or expecting babies in the new year.

It could also be that subconciously this is what I want after all.....

These past 2 years of having Liam have gone so fast that maybe it wouldn't be such a bad thing if I did put my own life back on hold for another few years. I could still work part time just a little later than I originally planned. I could even get back to work for a while if we had another baby after Liam started school.


I always said I would never say never to another child. Just the timing and situation had to be right.

Who knows where we will be this time next year?

Maybe this will only ever be a dream.

OR......Maybe there is something awaiting us that is part of a "bigger plan". I am not a religious person but I do believe that there are reasons why we are, that we are born to follow certain paths to get to certain places in our lives. The paths we follow can be rocky and trecherous but in the end it's not how we get to the final resting place that matters, but how we took the journey and made the most of every oppertunity along the way.

There I've said it - It's off my chest.

I cannot live in "maybes" or "ifs", so I'm off to live the rest of today. Whatever may happen in the future will go ahead to a certain extent, it's just making sure that we as individuals live life making the most of each choice and option when it arises and knowing we've done all we can in our power to make life happen the way we want it to.