My ex husband was an alcoholic.
If he had a good day, if he was happy, if he was angry, upset or bored he'd have a drink.
He had an addiction and I sometimes find myself in the same boat with food. Before you switch off this isn't JUST a diet post.
Part of a successful diet includes being honest with yourself.
Yesterday I had a bad day.
I didn't cycle because I hurt a muscle in my thigh. I felt a little down about that. I wanted to do it but I thought a day of rest would do me good.
I then find myself getting very hurt by a friends comment on facebook. I over-ate. Out of anger, sadness and boredom. I had a bit of a chocolate binge. (A toffee Crisp and 4 chocolate biscuits! I DID stop myself from more) The more I ate the worse I felt.
Today I am back with a new look for a new day. I have done 40km on my exercise bike. Partly because I feel I want to catch up on what I missed out on and partly because it acts as stress relief for me! It gives me time to think, to assess, to work things through. It doesn't only banish the fat in time but it also banishes the negative feelings.
I first started cycling after my marriage fell apart. The ex husband would phone, usually abusive and I would end up in tears. If not through the verbal abuse I'd be in tears with anger and hatred. The more I cycled the more I felt like I "was kicking him in the balls" and refusing to let him have a hold over my life when we apart. It became my outlet for relieving the stress. I'd feel so much better afterwards.
Today has been the same. I've been through some feelings regarding a certain friendship and feel that I need to get away from it for my own sanity. I can only be let down so many times. I can only take so many sarcastic comments and I can only give so much. Right now, the effort doesn't seem worth it.
Forrest Gump famously said "Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you are going to get"
I say "Some friends are like a box of chocolates. You can only have so much before they make you sick!"
Are you ok hun? I hope the comment wasn't too bad. You know I think the world of you. So what If you have had a bad day, you have had plenty of good ones that more than make up for it. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteNegative "friends" are just not worth it. If they make you feel bad- they're not your friend. Get them out of your life! Hope everything gets better soon!
ReplyDeleteLove the line at the end, you are so right!
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to say goodbye to some people, but in the end it may be for the best.
I hope that you are doing okay, and we ALL slip up and do things that we aren't so proud of at times. The only thing you can really do is exactly what you did do - pick yourself up, realize that today is a new day, and go on as well as you can and try to do better. You are such a strong person, and you deserve people in your life who will motivate and support you - not make you feel like crap. xoxo