Contraception Is Evil And Tricks The Body But Not The Brain (So Much)

I am feeling so much brighter since when I last posted. Thank you SO much for your views and advice. It does mean alot to me.

I guess we all have moments where we just feel like life is getting to us and at this point, it seemed to be getting to me via my kids.

My contraceptive injection is alot to blame I think.

I've been feeling rather crappy since I've had it. Restless, crampy, hungry, weight gain, hormonal, sensitive, sore boobs, tired, stressed out over nothing etc.

You know, all those wonderful early pregnancy signs whilst I know I have gone against nature and done something preventeing more children. In pregnancy I can deal with it, I have something good to focus on at the end. But this??? It just sucks that I get all this and no baby which I would quite like. Ugh! I think that before my next one is due in January I may have to re-evaluate whether to stick with it or try something else.

Since the last post, I've tried to change some of my approach with Matthew. To be more understanding, not to yell quite so quickly and to explain things more, like why he needs to get his shoes on quicker or why he can't go to the shops with mud covered knees. I know the repetition thing probably won't stop, but I am learning to be more patient as he understands why it's important to do things in a set pattern. Matthew is very much a creature of habit and likes routine so hopefully this will help us both as we wait for official diagnosis.

Liam is fine so far. As always, there has been no sign of his hernia since the doctors appointment but something has been said and like I said hopefully we can get this fixed or some form of proper advice before it does become an Emergency job like before.

We are back to potty training with James again. It has been so stop start for so long. We're doing well. James also is a creature of of habit and is reluctant to give up the nappies. But we will get things as they should be soon. Liam also seems interested in potty training but I don't think he is ready just yet. James just wants to get on with life, why should he try to pee in a potty when a nappy is available? So every morning this week, he has been nappy free and using his potty well, we just need to try and get him to tell us when he needs to go more and for him to understand why we have to take our pants down/off to go to the toilet. You forget about all these little things like teething and potty training when you have an older child or before they get to these stages. I love lifes little challenges.

I've noticed a lot of other bloggers and people on facebook complaining of insomnia and headaches this week. Add me to the list of those. I've been sleeping so rubbish of late it's not funny. If I am not tossing and turning all night I tend to wake up around midnight for an hour then I wake up around 3am-4am and cannot get back to sleep. This means I am very reluctant to get up in the mornings. Thus escalating as I don't have much energy to do things with the kids, I have a constant tired headache, throw in the post contraceptive symptoms and my patience gets very worn by late afternoon so kids end up fed, bathed and put to bed by 7pm. By the end of the day I am ready to crash about 9pm. However if I go to bed early, I know damn well I will be awake in the night or up and wide awake around 5am with my body having no intention of trying to get back to sleep again.

Sorry for a bit of whiny entry but it's an improvement on the last one where I was just miserable. :)