Leaving The Ghosts Of Yesterday Behind.

A few nights ago I had a very vivid dream. I don't often remember my dreams but when I do they are at particular stages in my life which normally carry a huge amount of importance.

I was finding myself walking up a hill. Tall trees were all around me like it was a woodland walk but the trees were rather dense. Sunlight streamed through the broken gaps between leaves and branches as I took in my surroundings. I was lost, I knew I was lost but it was ok. It was not a fearful lost feeling. I was comfortable. It was more of an adventure in beautiful surroundings.

I eventually came to the highest point of the climb. The forest opened up to a very old house. A guest house in fact. It looked creepy and it was inhabited by a very old lady. I never went in, I just watched through the windows. I realised this wasn't a home for lost walkers like myself, but a home for lost souls. I had walked directly to a haunted house. The "people" surrounding me and staying at this guesthouse, were spirits but kindred ones. Elderly souls who just wanted to be around a little longer. So when I say it was a haunted house, it was pleasantly haunted. I did not recognise any of these ghosts but they just went about their own business. I smiled to myself and walked away. I returned back down the path I had originally found and that's when I woke up.

All of this makes complete sense to me. All in relation to the new house in the new village.

To dream that you are lost in the woods, indicates that you are starting a new phase in your life. You are expressing some anxiety about leaving behind the familiar and what you know.

I was NOT anxious. I was relaxed, almost relieved. I was very much at peace with myself and although I was lost, I wasn't nervous nor afraid but happy to be doing something completely unknown and different from the norm. It was exciting and I loved it. I was keen to explore and seek the unfamiliar. It was an adventure.

To dream of a haunted house, signifies unfinished emotional business, related to your childhood family, dead relatives, or repressed memories and feelings.

Unfinished emotional business and repressed memories or feelings.... That's the interesting bit.

All the time I have been packing things away over the past few days ready for our move, I've been VERY aware of how much this house holds some memories. Many of which were bad. By sorting out the house I have been sorting out my emotional wellbeing at the same time. Although it's been 4 years since I split with my ex husband, some memories linger. And they aren't good ones. Leaving this house behind will be an end to any tie that was there.

The new house isn't just a new house.

It's a new future. It's a new time for dreams. It's about letting go of the past entirely.

I have done much of that already, just it will be a complete end to so much. I've binned my "baggage" on so many fronts since this house offer came through and though I have been very very happy since bf came into mine and Matthews lives, this will just be that little bit of icing on the cake.

I am not one to hold on to the past too much yet some things do haunt you and to leave that behind completely can only be a better thing for us all as a family.

Memories have been stirred and I did talk to bf about some. He knows the problems that went on in this house with my ex but talking about the future made me remember some of the things I had forgotten.

I am more than ready to forget about them for good.

Now is the time to move forward as a family. Not to let the past continue haunting me. The fact I faced the haunted house, saw happiness and left feeling happy represents a big part of me and how I feel about leaving behind the old "ghosts" of this house.

I am feeling very positive right now.