Feeling Good

Moving on from the last entry, I will not let one little health scare put me off anything between now and the appointment. I had my day of worry, my day I felt the stress of it but in all, stressing about it does no good in the slightest. I plan on just getting through normally and cross any bridges as and when necessary.

It helps that I have bf and the kids as distractions. I have a busy lifestyle and I have my friends.

My hen night at the weekend was great fun. We were a group of civilised ladies and it was just good for us all to have a get together.

The girls were gentle with me. Myself, my 3 bridesmaids, my mum, mum in law, my nan and 2 old friends had a chinese buffet meal to begin the evening. We didn't have to dress up too silly, the girls had little plastic tiaras and the bridesmaid, mother of the bride and mother of the groom had sashes. I had a special flashy light tiara and bride to be sash. We did spend alot of time in the chinese. The meal was lovely and we all took our time and enjoyed a few bottles of wine between us. We then moved on to two pubs around the town. In the second pub I drank water only. Having been on red wine all night rather than something I normally drink, I felt the effects rather strongly by 11pm. Now, as much as I like a drink, I know when my body is telling me to back off so I let sense rule the rest of the evening and drink something good. It was a very warm evening so it did me good in all ways.

We all headed home around 1am. The alcohol and heat and having had the normal "work" at home with the kids had me completely shattered. I stayed over at my mums and slept in Matthews sleepover bed. Now, I am not particularly tall. I am 5ft 3inches (162cm) but my head touched the top of the bed and my feet the bottom. Despite being exhausted it took me a while to get to sleep and I was still downstairs having a drink at 7.30am Sunday morning.

We stayed at my mums for Sunday lunch and then visited my nan and grandad briefly in the afternoon.

On the way home, we got stuck on a country lane behind some runaway goats that had nowhere to run to safety. We had a very slow drive for part of the journey.

So then other news:

My ex contacted Matthew for the first time in 6 months. He seemed ok, but I never hold my breath for long.

My ex is going to be a dad again. For his own sake, I hope he doesnt cock it up this time. I know I am not the most sympathetic person towards him, but I have my reasons. It doesn't mean I don't want him to move on and be happy in the future.

My brother has a new girlfriend. They've been friends a while and it's good to see him moving on from the last bitch. He's currently going through courts to get access rights drawn up so she can't keep cancelling and being "out of town" on the days he's supposed to see his son. I always knew she would be very awkward. I can see through most women.

I am ordering my wedding balloons this week.

I am getting the flowers I want for my bouquet and doing a practice on them this week too.

I need a haircut.